Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Fire And Ice. Or, A New Sexual Experience For Me.

Wow.  I mean wow!  Fucken WOW!!

I have just had a mind blowing experience.  One I never expected, one I would have dismissed out of hand.

Jose and I played with Japanese Drip Candles.  I have never had hot wax dripped on me before, nor really desired it.  I have seen it done at a huge variety of strip shows, and enjoyed watching, but I never expected to be doing it myself!!

Jose and I discussed it after a couple of wines (Oooops), and decided to try it.  I lay naked on the couch, and he lit a candle and dripped the wax onto my stomach.  I could not believe how good it felt!  It burned, but very briefly.  And the higher he held the candle, the more it cooled before the wax hit me.

Within seconds (at my encouragement), he was dripping wax onto my breasts and nipples and genitals.  I couldn’t get enough!!  Fuck me!!!  Please….   It was awesome, I loved it.

We moved to the bed, and continued, more wax, licking, touching and teasing.  Jose put a burning candle inside me (flame end out!!).  It was awesome to feel/see/experience!!  Incredible.  He also got an ice cube from the freezer, and alternated heating and cooling  bits of me.  He ended up putting it inside me, and it melted so fast!!

The orgasm I had was mind blowing.  My whole body was involved, and it lasted soooo long!  It left me a shivering, quaking mess.  I highly reccomend it.

A couple of words to the wise…  Use a towel or a sheet to catch the wax, it makes a mess.  Don’t use scented candles, unless they are specifically designed for this, the essential oils in them often burn hotter than plain wax, so they can burn, the idea is to titillate, not mutilate.  Test it on the back of your hand before you move anywhere more sensitive.

I am even kinkier than I thought…  Yum.

Love,

Chiquita

x

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Monday, December 28, 2009

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Friday, December 25, 2009

The UK Sex Toy Awards 2009 - LoveHoney Reveals Britain's Best Sex Toys

  The UK Sex Toy Awards 2009  

The judges have tried, tested, orgasmed and voted – it’s time to show the winners of the UK Sex Toy Awards 2009

Each toy was rated in a variety of categories and the overall score was rated out of 100. 

The 2009 Winners
  • Jessica Rabbit 2.0 G-Spot


  • The 2009 Finalists
  • Magic Bullet 2.0
  • BASIC Finger Ring
  • Tracey Cox Massager
  • SaSi Vibrator
  • Screaming O Fingo
  • Lelo Mia
  • See more on LoveHoney’s 2009 Sex Toy Awards here: 

    The UK Sex Toy Awards 2009 – LoveHoney Reveals Britain’s Best Sex Toys.

  • Erotic Rocket 2.0
  • Vibe Therapy Serene
  • We-Vibe
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    Wednesday, December 23, 2009

    Tera Patrick: Porn Caused My Divorce

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    Monday, December 21, 2009

    Adultspace Nominated for 2010 XBIZ Dating Program of The Year

    adultspace300xAIDS1 Los Angeles, California – Adultspace.com, the premier adult social network and free dating site, earned a nomination for Dating Program of the Year by XBIZ, the adult entertainment industry’s number one business and information portal. The 2010 XBIZ awards show will be held in Hollywood February 10th at the world-famous Avalon Hollywood.

    2,365 submissions for this year’s ceremony were considered, and Adultspace has landed a spot in the Dating Program of the Year circle. Receiving a nomination at The XBIZ awards is an honor in the world of adult entertainment, and the awards serve to recognize the most influential people and companies who stimulate growth and popularity of adult entertainment on a global scale.

    “We are honored and thrilled to be nominated for an XBIZ award!” said Ruben Kane, CEO and founder of Adultspace. “The entire Adultspace team dedicates so much time and energy into creating the best experience possible for our members, and this nomination rewards all of our hard work.“

    2009 has been a great year for Adultspace and its members. While other dating sites are charging members to communicate on their site, Adultspace continued to offer more features all for free.

    Back in March, Adultspace received $1.3 million in funding and immediately began adding more features to the site. Shortly after launching a mobile version of the site, Adultspace provided all users the ability for mobile uploading. Adultspace then answered the demand for more storage by increasing video and photo uploads per user. Just this month in recognition of World AIDS Day, Adultspace provided its members with a resource page on prevention and education.

    Adultspace stands out through their solid dedication to building a thriving online community for adults. Over 800,000 members actively engage in emails, chats, posting blogs, forums, contests, creating surveys and polls. Creating a group or surveying a picture to check if you’re hot achieves meeting and connecting with like-minded members. Classified and events sections encourage members to play offline.

    Adultspace is unlike any other adult dating program out there because everyone’s niche is accepted and celebrated. On Adultspace, expressing yourself is not limited to a preset list of questions.

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    Friday, December 18, 2009

    Making Sure Volunteers and Staff Get Along

    So you’ve decided to enlist leadership-level older adult volunteers to extend your organization’s services. Congratulations!

    Now, a quick question: Is your organization ready for this?

    Integrating volunteers into staff roles can be a challenge, so the National Council on Aging brought to its sold-out Webinar series a session called “Changing Organizational Culture: Getting Your Nonprofit Ready for Professional and Leadership Volunteers.”

    In it, Phil McCallion of the Center for Excellence in Aging Services, School of Social Welfare, SUNY at Albany and Gajtana Simonovski, of the Community Service Society, Retired & Senior Volunteer Program, New York, New York, shared their experiences in integrating the two. Here’s what they had to say.

    First, Simonovski debunked the myths of what staff think about high-skill volunteers.

    Myth: They will take staff jobs.

    Reality: Most are not looking for another job. But they can free staff to do more strategic planning.

    Myth: It takes more time than it’s worth to manage and train them.

    Reality: Sometimes training takes more time in the beginning, said Simonovski, “but really there’s a big payout at the end, more than you put in.”

    Myth: They agency hop, not staying long in one position, and won’t commit to regular hours.

    Reality: They want flexibility and variety in their assignments, but are willing to make a commitment.

    Myth: They will criticize staff.

    Reality: They want to share their expertise and knowledge and enable nonprofits to involve skilled professionals in their planning process. “Rather than be afraid of their expertise, welcome it,” she said.

    Phil McCallion thinks of leadership-level volunteers as consultants. He suggested that to get buy-in, be explicit that you are not replacing staff. Instead, convey that they bring experience and can help staff. Simonovski said they held a meeting for staff in the beginning to alleviate fears, and made the business case as to why volunteers would help staff do their jobs. McCallion also recommended doing and sharing a cost-benefits analysis. “If we start to see what the benefit is, absolutely we’ll see more buy-in.”

    Taking care of basic logistics is important, too, such as giving them office space, a desk, phone, mailbox, even business cards. Asking volunteers to share desks and computers concurrently rarely works, said McCallion. For the Center for Excellence in Aging Services project, the office space usually reserved for volunteers and interns was reorganized to meet these volunteers’ specific needs. Creating the sense that volunteers had their own space and equipment was an important part of engaging people and making them feel committed, he said. And it signaled to everyone that the volunteers are making an important contribution.

    Treating volunteers as staff in other ways is helpful as well, said Simonovski. For example, involve them in regular program planning meetings so that they become part of the team. Share project evaluation reporting with them so that they can see how the program is doing, and how they are doing. Offer professional development training. Correspond regularly through e-mail and phone calls and speak frankly with them, encouraging them to come up with solutions to project challenges.

    The key, said McCallion, is building a sense of team, a sense of communication, and a sense that everyone’s opinion is valued.

    This shift in thinking changes the traditional relationship between volunteers and staff. Whereas previously the roles were of boss and staff, now it’s a lateral or parallel approach that provides equality, said Simonovski. Instead of supervision, it’s about support. “In many cases, these volunteers have more experience than we do,” she said. As a result, staff members try not to squelch the volunteers’ creativity and experience.

    And a leadership-level volunteer is less likely to hold a single position indefinitely. Short-term assignments and flexible long-term assignments are the new way. This change away from a single track makes sense, because “most of our organizations would never permit that for staff,” said McCallion. Volunteers feel invisible within organizations when playing that one role. A parallel approach is a big departure from tradition, and one that volunteers welcome, he said.

    These factors feed into culture change, McCallion said.

    An organization has to be open to fully involving volunteers to change its culture, he said. In fact, an openness to change is one of the most critical elements of a successful project with leadership volunteers. How else can you achieve change? Commit to using those volunteers to improve the organization. Prepare staff for culture change, ensure that management is open to feedback, and keep communication open.

    How might you know when that transformation has taken place? Said McCallion, when there is no difference in terms of how people are seen in the hall.

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    She was born in Colombia, and raised in Spain by her Colombian mother and Spanish father. She performed under the stage name Zuleidy, before moving to the U.S. and changing her name to Lupe.  On June 10, 2009, the production company Teravision announced they had signed her as a contract star. In addition to movies, she has modeled on the Internet under the name Little Lupe. On March 15, 2007 she married adult film director Pablo Lapiedra.

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    Wednesday, December 9, 2009

    Graham Busley

           Graham adopted the cat from the shelter because it seemed like The Right Thing To Do. Graham did many things in his life because they were The Right Things. He flossed every other day, donated to charity, never drove more than three miles over the speed limit, and gave up his seat to old women on the bus. He did all The Right Things, but he still felt very lonely some days.

           And so, the cat. He liked dogs as well, but at a young age, he had affiliated himself with cats. This was more due to his father’s dog allergy than any real preference, but growing up in a household that kept cats, he began to appreciate the low maintenance lifestyles of felines.

           Lordy was their first cat. He was perfectly content if you ran your hand down his back and fed him table scraps occasionally. Graham was struck by how much easier cats were to please than people, and he fell in love with the shabby grey tabby.

           So he was depressed when Lordy was hit by his neighbour’s truck when he was in the seventh grade. His parents tried to reason with him, remind him that Lordy’s health was already failing. Graham remained convinced that the neighbours had done it on purpose, in retribution for the time Graham accidentally kicked a soccer ball through their bay window. He’d already paid for half of the repair costs! It seemed excessive that Lordy should have to pay for his mistake as well.

           Samantha was the replacement cat. She was a white fuzzball, and more demanding than her predecessor. This lead to some false assumptions by Graham about the nature of women going into highschool. Samantha would mewl if you didn’t give her the attention she believed she deserved. She was still alive by the time Graham graduated. Her needy ways had grown on him in those four years, and he found that he missed her female presence in his all-male dorm at university. Samantha would not have tolerated the piles of dirty laundry.

           Gemma was a happy medium between the two, a rough-and-tumble female from the mean streets of Chicago. She had street smarts. She also liked honey-dew melon and cantaloupe. He liked her very much, even when she bit him. He started to donate his money to the animal shelter, not just because it was The Right Thing To Do, but because he wanted to.

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    Friday, December 4, 2009

    Johnny Dep, White, and Celebrating Christmas with Love

    I was looking thru my Christmas costumes and I only had 1: Mrs. Santa. I thought, “Gee, I did 17 Halloween costumes and that were scary, gory, and devilish. But I am a Christian, and I love.” One can love whether one’s a Christian or not.

    And Whites need to Love one another, since the Jews have deliberately not only taught us to “hate” one another, but to fight, kill and war against each other, for their $$$$.

    So I thought I would come up with more Xmas costumes. And believe it or not, I came up with 14 more. You see, that is how I have so many costumes for Karaoke, (177). I come up with 5 at a time, or as in Xmas this year 14 more!

    I hear all kind of complaints on the radio that the Jews are taking over with colossol Menorrahs with 8 candles, symbolizing the Jewish male’s bloody circumcision and prayers of war. I hear that they are taking God and Christ away from us.

    But, other than buying presents and getting together one night, do people really say “I love Christmas.”

    I have to admit, I didn’t. I would sing maybe 3 Xmas songs, if that, and want to hurry on to my other songs that I know the crowd has been more brainwashed to appreciate. It isn’t “cool,” to be loving. At least that is what Jewish media has spread.

    But, I’m not a Jewish princess or Queen, I’m a loving Christian, or try to be, and always have been. If the Jews hadn’t invaded our country and practically destroyed our race, we Whites would all be loving to each other also.

    Well, it reminds me of an autobiographical story. As you know I grew up in White Polish Poverty. The worse that one can imagine. Since Whites were taught to focus only on Blacks and Jews’ suffering, our big family was totaly ignored. We never complained. We never begged even if starving. What made it hard was the people around us had plenty of $$$. They would just say, “Your Mama and Daddy ‘played’ now they have to ‘pay.’ ” I never got angry or mad about the poverty, nor was I ever jealous of other little girl’s fancy clothes, big meals, parents who didn’t fight and try to kill each other.

    I remember when I got my first babysitting job for the Polish people upstairs. When I got paid, one would think I would have run to the store to buy myself some candy. Or better yet since I didn’t have shoes or socks, boots or gloves, I might have purchased those in the cold, blustery, windy Chicago winters. But did I do the rational thing? No, I did the insane or crazy thing.

    I went and put the $1.00 I earned for babysitting all night in the bank. I had a traumatic experience but I will save that for the end.

    There was a bank in South Chicago called Calumet Federal and I started a Christmas Club. You see, I wanted to buy Xmas presents for my poor family who I loved so very very dearly. I wanted to make “them” happy. It is a love so unconditional that one doesn’t think of themselves, only of others.

    Well, by December, I went back to the bank and got $13.48! That was like a trillion to the black Obama and their spoiled servants that once used to pick a few buds of cotton for kind and generous White bosses in the South.

    I remember buying my Mama a $.15 bottle of Blue Waltz perfume with a gold heart on the top. I thought the fragrance divine. I did most of my shopping at Woolworths dimestore. I bought my Daddy socks or Pall Mall cigarettes. Yes they sold cigarettes to 12 year olds in those days, and it wasn’t long after that I started to smoke just like my Daddy. It took 5 times to quit, but I did before I got pregnant. I spent hte rest on my sisters and brothers. Every last copper penny was spent on them. Nothing for myself.

    When Xmas Eve came there were over 100 presents under the tree. Brother Eddie decorated with a few boxes of tinsel and meticulously placed each of the 2,000 strands individually to make a silvery, glistening spectacular sight. (by the way, Hitler was very fond of “silver” and not “gold” from the books I read.)

    Well, as I said above, I only made $13.48 and that was because I had to quit. Something very strange happened. It is odd, but after writing the media all my confessions I never wrote this story, because it was so painful.

    As you know I wanted to become a holy nun and was in church constantly and praying constantly. I had to pray, Mama and Daddy were going to kill each other in domestic violence and I believe my prayers stopped them short of that act.

    I was so naive to the ways of the world, especially since I didn’t have TV.

    I had to babysit for 3 children: Lynnette, Bobby and Pamela. The parents would go out late into the night so I would sleep over in their bed until they got home.

    Only something very horrible happened to me. I was lying in the bed and I sleep like a log.

    I was sleeping on my tummy and I awakened slightly for I felt the back of my pajamas were coming down and by bare butt was exposed. I thought I was dreaming, as I did when the black guy with the gun was in my toolshed recently.

    Then before you know it, as I lie on my tummy with bare butt, the little boy, probably only 7 years old, was naked and got on top of me. He rested his little peter between the cheeks of my butt.

    You know, this story was so painful, that I didn’t even write the media, I put it on a cassette tape and mailed it to them. And I was screaming and crying and sobbing for I was so very scared. I didn’t know what this was. We never talked of sex and sex was dirty if it was talked about. All I could think of was St. Barbara my patron saint, Virgin and Martyr, which I sometimes feel like today. And instead of being persecuted physically, I get persecuted mentally, which is worse and hurts more, for there is no sympathy only adversity.

    I lie there and I froze. I was scared of getting upset and losing my job. In my life, I always blamed “me,” for whatever was going wrong before. So I thought I must have done something wrong.

    I was able to pretend like I was still sleeping and slipped away from the little boy.

    I never told a word, until I moved to Las Vegas. It was why I was so leerie about being around children or dressing sexy around them. This might not sound like a lot to you, but it was earth shattering. I heard John DeNugent talk about his own experience on the radio, and I could clearly identify with it: But a 7 year old White boy?

    Sigh. Needless to say, I quit, and no one knew why. Don’t forget I took a vow of silence practicing to become a nun.

    It wasn’t long afterwards that the apartment upstairs went up in flames. My brother and I were home for lunch, and I heard the lady upstairs scream “Anna, Anna.” But, Mama ‘hated’ the woman upstairs for Mama thought that this woman was teaching Daddy about oral sex when he went upstairs to have a few beers with them. So Mama just cursed the woman when I asked Mama for help.

    I ran upstairs and my brother ran after me. When I got to the top all I could see in the nearby living room was an entire room blasted with flames so close I could touch and my hair was singed. The smoke was practically unbearable.

    At the other exit of the home, stood the lady with only 2 of her children. The 7 year old boy was one. The mother could not get to her baby because of the smoke and flames and I ran to the bedroom. My brother came with and “he” picked up the baby and we ran out together.

    I just wanted to finish this story, for two reasons. 1. It was why I only had $13.48 for Xmas presents, as I quit babysitting early after this little boy wanted to perform a sexual anal act. (He didn’t) 2. It was why it was my brother that saved the baby and not me, for my brother took over babysitting when I quit.

    All I know that when that house burned down, with it went a lot of perversion. It was said that the 7 year old might have started it. Or the old wiring, since it was an old farm house.

    I guess too it is one of the reasons why I think our boys need “intelligent” sex education, by White male instructors, and not by Black school instructors or not learned on the street. This trauma should have never happened. In Hitler’s day, it wouldn’t have. Boys and girls were taught to have normal sex and pro-creative sex to make lots of smart, healthy, spiritually minded with character, White German babies.

    In all this time, have we “progressed” with sex. No we have regressed and degenerated with sex. I have been very scarred emotionally.

    Well, here I’ll be singing 15 Xmas songs, to try to compete with my 17 devilish Halloween songs. I feel bad because I know I shouldn’t spend $$$ on karaoke costumes that I don’t get paid for. But, I have always sung from my heart whether I got paid or not.

    I’m not Jewish; I am a Christian.

    And for those of us that want to keep Christmas and the Christ Jesus alive in our hearts, then we have to go out and make this the best Xmas ever. If the Jews dare try to interfere, boycott the hell out of them. And believe me “hell” is in them and they need to be exorcised and get the devils out of them and their Jewish wives and Jew kids.

    By the way, when I wrote to you about my suicidal attempt when I was 9, I read about Johnny Depp and he apparently did the same thing:

    From Wiki:

    Early life

    Depp was born in Owensboro, Kentucky, the son of Betty Sue Palmer (née Wells), a waitress, and John Christopher Depp, Sr., a civil engineer.[3] He has one brother, Danny, and two sisters, Christie (now his personal manager) and Debbie. Depp has German, Cherokee (mostly from a great-grandmother), and Irish ancestry.[1][4] According to biographies, the Depp family originated with a French Huguenot, Pierre Deppe or Dieppe, who settled in Virginia around 1700.[5] Depp stated he did not know the origin of his surname and joked about the name translating to “idiot” in German.[6][7] The family moved frequently during Depp’s childhood, and he and his siblings lived in more than 20 different locations, settling in Miramar, Florida, in 1970. In 1978, Depp’s parents divorced. He engaged in self-harm as a child, due to the stress of dealing with family problems and his own insecurity. He has seven or eight scars from practicing self-harm. In a 1993 interview, he explained his self-injury by saying, “My body is a journal in a way. It’s like what sailors used to do, where every tattoo meant something, a specific time in your life when you make a mark on yourself, whether you do it yourself with a knife or with a professional tattoo artist”.

    (So you see, my life also has been a “journal.” Even my performances today, are part of my live journal, only instead of paper, I’m in self-made/designed costumes, singing out my feelings and words to a mostly White audience.)

    I cry knowing the scars are healed, at least the physical ones.

    What if Johnny Depp didn’t talk about it? All I know is that by reading that he went through the same thing, it takes away some of my own pain for none of my sisters or brothers had such severe depression as I had.

    I think keeping myself busy with costume-making will keep me more cheerful. I wonder why Jewish kids don’t have to go through this, or do they? After all the Jews called Poland and now America: heaven and paradise.

    It wasn’t for Johnny Depp!

    Lovingly,

    [Via http://kkkaraoke.wordpress.com]

    Wednesday, December 2, 2009

    The End

    This posting has been in my draft folder for about a week and I finally have a chance to complete it and post it. My apologies.

    The words “It’s Over!” carried through the house! I told her that we should separate! The insecurities and the accusations have finally overflowed! I am not going to live with and be married to someone that doesn’t trust me, doesn’t believe me and I damn sure have no trust or belief in anything she tells me. She says she loves me but yet in the same breath tells me that I am cheating on her and I am not telling her the truth!

    I have devoted 14 years to this woman. 2 years of asking her to go out with me. almost 12 years of marriage. Not once did I stray! Not once did I do anything to break any trust or the ability to believe what I say! Yes! I said I think it would be a good idea to separate! Her comeback: “I’m not gonna comeback to you after you go out and have your fun and screw around.” WTF??? In my mind, a separation was a chance for both parties to be away from each other so they could think about things. Life. Marriage. What they wanted. Etc. Apparently I was wrong. Apparently (according to her) it a chance for me to go out a screw around and not feel guilty!

    This choice was not one that was easy to be made. This choice was a difficult choice because of my 2 girls (7 and 11). I have always had the interest of my kids at heart. I don’t care what happens to me, as long as they are not hurt or effected. They need to be happy. Although in a time like this, it’s a little harder but all I can do is try to make it easier and listen and talk to them. This is not a easy time for them. It sucked for my brother and I when my parents went through it. I can understand what and how and all the feelings that come along with it. I just want to be there for them!

    So my marriage is all but over. She is staying through the holidays and then she is out! She keeps at me about everything! I am starting over too! I am keeping the house that I have been paying for by myself for the past 3 years! I am keeping my car! The only other thing I would argue would be the TV and my PS3. Come on! The kids are already a given!

    She can whatever else she wants to take. beds, furniture, etc. She keeps telling me, “This is what you want.” I don’t ever recall uttering the words divorce! My words were separate! She took the next route and then tells me, “I will not be keeping your name, I will go back to my maiden and I am going to be filing bankruptcy I can put the car on there so if anything happens they cannot touch it. My credit sucks, I have nothing but the girls and I will be starting from scratch.”

    So what am to come back with? Good Luck?? I dunno. My first marriage, my wife left in the middle of the day after almost 1 year of marriage. She wanted to go back to being a whore! Yes, I was crushed! Yes, I cried for weeks! I eventually got over it and moved on! This marriage is ending after 11 (almost 12) years! Will I be crushed? I don’t think so. I think I am almost ready for it to happen and be over with. It’s not even worth me doing anything else to even try. The trust is gone. The love is gone. The disgust is here. From BOTH sides.

    I will keep on. I will be here! I will be happy again!

    Hopefully I won’t feel the need to post anymore about this subject. That’s another reason for the title! next will be more uplifting, positive, happy posts!!!!

    And P L E N T Y of pics!!!!

    Full

    Full

    Chained

    Chained

    Slide Over

    Slide Over

    Joanna Krupa

    Joanna Krupa

    Sabine Marie Schmid

    Sabine Marie Schmid

    Red

    Red

    Strip

    Strip

    Rodeo

    Rodeo

    Boobs

    Boobs

    White

    White

    Pirate Ship

    Pirate Ship

    Lift with the legs

    Lift with the legs

    Ice Cubes

    Ice Cubes

    Make Me a Pie

    Make Me a Pie

    In the library

    In the Library

    Class

    Class

    Chocolate

    Chocolate

    On the Beach

    On the Beach

    Heat

    Heat

    TERA PATRICK

    TERA PATRICK

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