Childhood Redux

I feel like I’m nine years old right now.

Which is strange considering I just drove myself home after dark while: not using my hands to steer, texting, changing the songs on my ipod. Also because I am now legally an “adult.”

But honestly. I don’t think I’ve grown up very much.

Maybe this whole being an adult thing has made me want to stay a kid.

I want to retain my childhood for as long as possible, so I keep doing things that I did when I was little.

I’m playing Pokemon.

I’m watching Disney movies.

I’m eating Chef Boyardee  for dinner.

I’m reliving my childhood ten years after it happened.

Maybe it’s the fear and the uncertainty of the future.

That could be driving me to want to go back to when things were simple and easy.

Or maybe it’s just that I need some time to be a kid again without all of the pressure of adulthood.

I’m not quite sure.

But am I ever?

Hopefully I’ll figure myself out sooner or later.

Maybe then I can get a grip on things.

But for now,

I’m going to be a kid.

I’m going to act the way I want and do the things I want because as an adult, I can make my own decisions.

I’m just deciding to be a kid for a little while longer.

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